Maybe i'm just taking what they all saying to heart when i shouldnt be as ya'll say. Maybe its just all me because i'm having such a hardtime accepting the environment i chose to come back to. Seeing barely nothing being done when told in the beginning different. Another place much anger comes out of.

All the people i know have at times told me they've just broken down at some point over it all and now accept it for what it is. I've never reached that point of 'breaking down'. My t says i'm holding onto the past, pre-katrina. I feel like i have accepted it, i just never had the 'breakdown'. I havent shed a tear. But they say to let it go, cry, throw things, whatever and i'll see life at that point in a different way. I can't cry. I still have the numb feeling.

This is too long after the fact to still have these problems. Something is seriously wrong with me. I feel embarrased and ashamed for who i've become.