Okay, so I did go to my first T appointment. She came down to greet me and said she really thought by my email to her that she was going to come and look for me and I would not show up. I did not like it at all. I have another appointment scheduled for Monday. I do not like probing questions so.....big issue to start off. Of course I am sure they are the same with most T's trying to get to know you and how you grew up and your family dynamics. Of course I got one of those....hmmm interesting family comments. I thought why didn't she just say typical dysfunctional family. All these questions I had a hard time answering and now am feeling very vulnerable and uncomfortable inside. I am now feeling guilty I was not 100% honest on some things like SI. She did say I must have a lot of anger in me from childhood till now that needs to be worked out. From what little I did say she said I am in for a long road and need a lot of help working through it all.....even my childhood that for the most part I have little or no memory of. She realizes right now the main issues are due to the assault in October. She did not make me pay her today and understands this current issue is from the assault that took place at work. She is willing to speak to the lawyer about my situation and also wants me to se a psychiatrist to get properly medicted. Which has already been an issue the workers comp doc gave me a script for Lexapro and they denied paying for it. I am not feeling too good now having been there and don't know what else to say. I am not sure that I am a strong enough person to be able to go through this whole process.