Thank you Sky, I'm gonna call an atty on Monday to find out what my options are, if any. Angie also gave me a website to go to, to print the necessary form to apply for disability. I have had many theraposts and pdocs over the years, so I have documentation left and right. I'll have them all subpeonad if I have to.

What I want and need is for ppl that have managed to get disabiltiy benefits, how did they go about receiving that help, what agency, who to contact, what they expect of me in terms of bp illness. It's all just so uncertain for me, how am i gonna pay rent, I will get given 30 days notice before taking back "possession" of my apt. What do I do? Tell them I've lost my job? I'm planning to sell some of my jewelery at a pawn shop or something, as well at my old computer. It's all I can'think to do for the immediate need for $. I'm just so upset, so hurt, so betrayed, so violated for discrimination on the grounds of my illness and all that goes with that. He had once said that he loved me like I was his own daughter and how valuable I am to the compnay....what a load of crap.