ohhh folks

was reading "Falling Backwards" about trust (in self, in others) and a memory came up that I could never tell T in person

I thought if i put it into a letter I could send it to her

so I wrote it up and spiiiiiiiiiiiralllllllllllllllinggggggggggg..........
so completely
do I dare send it? what if I don't send it.
What if I do?? what if she terminates me?? this is a part of me that I will never accept - how could I - and don't want anyone ever to know existed. and yet... it's T we're talking about, not the evening news.

how do you people get the GUTS to do what you do all the time? I read what you write here and I don't think I can.