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I really understand all you said - it is so SO hard.

GOOD JOB making it to the first appointment. There are always so many questions the first time because they are doing the initial assessment. And it can be very uncomfortable.

Please don't feel bad for "not being 100% honest". It is smart to disclose what you are comfortable with and when you feel ready. It will take a while to build up trust. She sounds like a good T, and I hope you do go back on Monday.

In the meantime, can you do something to take extra special care of yourself tonight? You deserve it because you took such a huge difficult step today. Maybe take a bath, read a good book, have some tea, or watch a movie? It can help to stay distracted from your feelings of vulnerability and being uncomfortable, and if you can't, maybe let it all out in a journal or something.

You said:
You proved today that you ARE strong enough.
You did what you didn't think you could do, and I know you can keep going.
wishing you some peace......