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Old Mar 03, 2009, 07:32 PM
sky dancer sky dancer is offline
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I don't know if this fits anywhere else. I have used the internet over the last couple of years obsessively as a way to avoid uncomfortable feelings.

I'm in treatment for PTSD.

The pattern I have is to go on political forums and find the meanest poster I can find to tangle with--or to support the least popular poster--the underdog.

This is a re-enactment of of trauma bonding from my childhood abuse.

Anyone else have a similar compulsion?

A strategy that I am trying now is that I installed a program that blocks certain sites.

If I find myself --addicted to the site--I ask my partner to put that site to be blocked.

I can still access these restricted sites on public computers--such as the library but it seems to be working so far.

It's ironic, that I would become a new member here, at another forum, but at least, the purpose of posting here is not argument by definition--as it is in political or crime forums.

Looking forward to getting to know some of you.