I don't know if this fits anywhere else. I have used the internet over the last couple of years obsessively as a way to avoid uncomfortable feelings.
I'm in treatment for PTSD.
The pattern I have is to go on political forums and find the meanest poster I can find to tangle with--or to support the least popular poster--the underdog.
This is a re-enactment of of trauma bonding from my childhood abuse.
Anyone else have a similar compulsion?
A strategy that I am trying now is that I installed a program that blocks certain sites.
If I find myself --addicted to the site--I ask my partner to put that site to be blocked.
I can still access these restricted sites on public computers--such as the library but it seems to be working so far.
It's ironic, that I would become a new member here, at another forum, but at least, the purpose of posting here is not argument by definition--as it is in political or crime forums.
Looking forward to getting to know some of you.
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