((((((((((((((((((((((((sitting)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Your T is not going to send you away for telling. I have asked T before if there is ANYTHING I could tell him that wouldn't be okay, or that would make him send me away, and he really thought about it and said that anything I bring to therapy is absolutely fine. He has proven he will accept me how I am.

Ts are not there to judge us, they are there to accept us and help us learn to accept ourselves. A few months into therapy I told T about something I had done that I have always been SO ashamed of...something that had eaten at me for years...and he was completely accepting, helped me understand the "why" of it...and it was like this moment of instant healing. Just that acceptance and understanding from him allowed me to finally forgive myself.

There are still things that I can't talk to T about, but I am getting closer. It's hard and scary....but one day, you realize the time is right and you just open your mouth and say it. Honestly, the fear of hearing myself say things has always been so much worse than the actual experience of telling. Even knowing that, it doesn't make it easier when something new comes up (which is where I'm at right now, ugh!)

(((((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))) to both of you, hanging on and sitting