I have spent months thinking that i would never be able to talk about certain things, thinking ok, if i bring this up, that's gonna be it, therapy over....it never has happened though. I still feel the same dread but what i am beginning to realise now is that i'm using up energy in holding back and trying to contain the fear when really i could use that energy to try to open up and move forward with my healing. I also try to look at it from the point of view that i hope my t will see me for the person i am now, not who i was or did back then, and that my t will accept what i have to say in an effort to help leave the bad stuff behind and have a more productive future.
It is really hard i know it is but once it's out there and it's been accepted, the feelings of relief are huge
I'm not sure if i've worded what i wanted to say very well, i struggle with that alot but I do hope that things go well for anyone who is struggling with this right now

queenie