I've never cried so much in my life.....

As soon as I got home, my husband was there....and I was in tears. I didn't want to blurt everything out right then and there....but I couldn't hold it back.

Long story short.....he suggested a trial separation, getting his own place for 6 months so he can work on seeing a therapist for his OCD issues, etc. He's saying that I'm not even giving him a chance and how could I give up on us just like that. We talked about a LOT of things....

My heart is breaking into a million pieces. I do love him, and I am so confused right now. I know WHO he is and know that once back in his comfort zone, it will be more of the same.

I am so scared and heartbroken. After I put our daughter to bed, I noticed that he was not home. He just up and left. I hope he doesn't do anything crazy. When I had my meltdown last week, he said that when he was at work on Friday, he was thinking suicide. I don't know if that's just another one of his control tactics - trying to scare me....or if he really felt that.

I called his cell, and there was no answer.....I left a message. So far, no call back. I'm so scared right now.

And I'm also puzzled as to why the T would tell me right off the bat that even if my husband went to counseling to work on the issues, he doesn't see him changing.....How do you know that after meeting someone only twice? Then again, he IS the professional.

I don't know what to think anymore....