I have been talking to my T and to other "groups" / people here and it seems that communication is the recommended route to go. But to be honest the thought of communication with the other members of the "clan" is well freaky to say the least.

I have alot of fear the wells up when I think about it.
Fear that outsiders will think I am crazy.
Fear that they will respond.
... that they hold bad memories.
... that they will not like me.
... that they want to hurt me.

Just alot of fears. Some ratonal some not. Dose anyone else even understand these fears? I am not even sure I understand them.

Thanks for reading.
Diana