(((tmac)))u took the bigggest step by showing up. good for you!!! i know you may have mixed emotions right now but that's ok, why? because talking about some of the things that make u who are right now got stirred up by talking about them. i know when i first started therapy we touched on a lot of topics i had stuffed for so many years just to cope, i thought. but those feelings are still down there and if you stick with this, you will find solutions for many of those negative experiences and feelings. try to be kind to yourself and know that you have taken a big step... pat yourself on the back and keep moving forward.
glad you got to discuss the wild woman that attacked you too. anyone would have ramifications emotionally about sumthin' like this. it's traumatic.
sounds like you got a very kind T that will help you thru this process. i'm very proud of you for knowing that you needed assistance on all this. it's too much to untangle by yourself. so big hugs from me to you, tmac.