Sannah, when there is no space left for me all I can do is to shut the world out. I don't feel as if there is anyone out there that really cares about who I am, or the pain I feel everyday. So my anger runs really deep, I get scared and lose control. Last night I started doing risky stuff, but didn't even realize what I was doing until my daughter pointed it all. This morning I made a appt. with T because I know I'm probably heading down the path I shouldn't be going. I just need to hold on one more day. I believe in my mind that he at least cares, and he can at least help me clear some space.