((((dianasclan)))) i know what you mean and understand, im dealing with the same thing right now and am not handling it well, there is all kind of fears with the thought of the communication route, there is fears i didnt even knew i had or even existed, maybe we can just both take a deep breath and slow down and just send each other hugs and thoughts and get through it. that is if you want to you never know it might help all of us just knowing there is someone who is going through it now, even though im sure lots on here has already been to this point.