someone mentioned I should write it (I already had, that's what started the spiral) and hand it to her.
What? Me hand it over to her and sit there while she reads it?! I don't even want to be in the same county when she reads it. I want her to read it WEEKS before I see her again.

ktg, thanks (thanks to all really - I mean REALLY )
today I am playing phone tag with T, to see if I can just talk to her a little bit about sending it. I have tried to just drop it in the mailbox, and I cannot.

Brother, I know this is going to be such a mature conversation.
if I send it, you promise you won't leave me?
Promise???
Cross your heart???