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Originally Posted by Poohbear13
My Ts shared with me yesterday that they won't be sharing with me what happens when a part comes out and I am not able to be co conscious. They said they would share all of it eventually but right now is not the right time in my recovery. This has me very anxious and almost not wanting to having any of my parts come out in therapy. I feel completely and totally out of control when another part takes over and I have no idea what is happening during that time.
I have been doing some reading on DID and it seems that giving up control is a major issue. I am told and have read that in order to get anywhere in therapy and recovery that I have to give up control to my therapist. This involves A LOT of trust and I am not sure I am there yet with my Ts. What if I do something that is inappropriate? What if I hurt someone or something? What if I do something to embarass myself or others? What if I do something and it upsets my Ts and they don't want to to work with me anymore? These are all fears that I have.
How does one give up so much control to people I hardly know? Does anyone know what I am talking about? Am I making any sense? Does anyone have any good advise?
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I don't have DID, but I have problems just opening up with my T, just for the fact of not being able to Trust.
She tells me she will not judge, she is not a peer, or a parent, BUT I feel like the last time I opened up about being victimized when I was a child, ( I wasn't doing it to play vicitim, I was doing it so that she could understand where I was coming from.) Shed wanted me to open up to her. And her response was that I am no longer a victim and that I should understand that.
OY! did that piss me off. So I have held back much information since than on.
This prob doesn't help you, I guess a person just needs to step out of that shell eventually or else they will never know what they can do.
Try something small. Hope that made sense.
