Hi Chaotic,

To answer your question, no I don't think we are inherently evil. Quite the opposite, I think we are inherently good. However, I think that you have encountered your "shadow." We all have a darker side that we are not necessarily proud of. T calls it your lower self, and says it's good to be aware of it. But I don't think it makes you bad or a bad or evil person.

I have often had multiple images/thoughts/crowded ideas/emotions in my brain simultaneously. It's called flooding and it is NOT fun. When I feel this way I try any way I can--like you and others--to get it out. Sometimes I run on the treadmill and sometimes I write, journal, poetry,etc. I also will draw.