Stephanie--
I just want to encourage you to continue to tell your story. You don't have to do it all at once.
You are a courageous young woman to have this much self-awareness at your age.
We all have stories.
I want to just listen to yours for awhile. Your story is all of our stories--we just have different circumstances--but we share traumatic pasts that intrude and interfere in our present enjoyment of life.
I'm so glad you found your way here.