...even though I struggled with waiting, trusting, even not believing...hmmm, ...I don't have to feel shame or guilt at these fauxpas...you just want me to run into your open arms like a little child...and you even understand why I'm not too good at that either...how I just ranted and railed and showed no patience...still insecure...through all of this, there was no expectation from you...so, well, anyway, thank you for...well...thank you for everything, to you PC people and to God.