I just wanted to share this thought with everyone. Sometimes I think I am a really bad person, but I have realized something. When I think of myself as a bad person, it becomes more difficult to act like the best person I can be. A sort of self fulfilling propechy, I suppose. Also, it reminded me of a Jewel quote from her song, Sensitive. It says something like, "I have this theory, that if we're told we're bad, then that's the only idea we'll ever have." That quote may not be exact, since I'm doing it from memory. But like I said, if you can't forgive yourself and think of yourself in a more positive light, it may become more difficult to be the person you want to be, or at the very least, it might be more difficult to have the drive to do all the good you can in the world, because your self hate is weighing you down. So, if you can let it go, and accept that even if you did bad in the past, you aren't that way anymore, you don't want to be, and you don't have to be, then you should let it go and accept the new improved you. Sometimes, we even hate ourselves for things we don't deserve to be hated for. Perhaps we should try to look at ourselves the same way we would look at a friend, in more understanding, love, and forgiveness than we give ourselves. If you really want to be a better person, and you are truly sorry for the past mistakes you have made, then maybe you already are a better person, if you'd only believe it, and let it be. And when you do, doing good deeds will be easier, because most of us are more motivated when we are feeling better about ourselves, and when we are in a better mood in general.