I was on accutane when it was still in early clinical trials, before birth control was required, I think I was 10. Basically, it was proven to cause suicidal thoughts or depression.

Sometime between 12-14, I was put on another round of accutane, and birth control was required, even though I had never even kissed a boy, I had to take it.

Now, I'm 22, and I've attempted, or thought of attempting suicide numerous times.

So, I honestly don't know if it could have been the birth control all this time or whether its my own body. Or if the birth control has drastically enhanced these thoughts.

Recently, it has been causing other side effects...or at least I think that has been the cause. I get horrible headaches that seem to originate from all over the inside of my brain, kind of like muscle spasms.

I have little to no sex drive, and as a kid I used to have a huge sex drive...not that I knew what a sex drive was, or that anything came of it.

I'm usually very sympathetic and empathetic, but lately, I see everything in and objective(?) way. I have moments where my perspective completely shifts and I see loved ones as strangers I could care less about, but I want to care and I can't.

I think I've been on Desogen (birth control) for 2 or 3 years.

I'm not sure how much of this is me, and how much of it is the medication...I've been on birth control since the beginning of puberty...and I think I want to stop taking it.

I've discussed it with my boyfriend, and he said we don't have to have sex, as long as I feel better. The thing is, I don't know if I'd be fine with that.

I don't know. Does anyone have any advice?