New here to this particular community.
Are we not all a bit melancholic at 4:00 AM when we feel that we are the only ones awake? You write beautifully. Why is some of our best writing accomplished when we are feeling so bereft, disenfranchised from self and others. Do we all struggle? Is life about struggling? I don't know. It seems like I struggle more than others, less than some. Your writing speaks of a very interesting person who is interested in life but just needs a kick start. You have got a spark, I sense it. I wonder how you will choose to ignite it? Whatever you do, I hope you keep writing. Your observation of others are very clever.