Why is it that one minute, I am strong, knowing what I want and feeling confident that I am doing the right thing.....and then the next minute, I am feeling like I am going to give in and stay the course in my marriage?

I just want him to give me a big hug right now and tell me it's going to get better.....and I know more than anything, he wants to do that too....

But I can't get sucked back into the misery of his verbal/emotional abuse, disrespect, etc......I feel like the minute he sees weakness in me, he will be empowered to not move forward with progress on getting the help he needs to get his OCD issues, behavioral issues, etc. under control.

At this moment, I don't know what I want. How is that possible when a few hours ago, I knew exactly what I wanted.....

Ria