Thank you for your support and encouragement. I sincerely appreciate it!

My concern was concentrated on my delight about those twelve seconds of floating in feel good. Several surgeries of various kinds have not led me to looking forward to any type of sedation, seeking that "lift," or changing the dosing schedule. I've been fortunate in not having a problem with meds associated with my pain issues, and I'm very, very grateful for it.
Yes, I am fiercely protective of my sobriety--as I've said 3,908 times

It does lurk as you put it, splitimage.
Perhaps my experience will also help others to understand it.
Time in any recovery program does not guarantee the loss of temptation, it might make us more aware of its patience and take measures to handle it.

Still...
I'm not bashing myself about it. It's a learning experience for myself and hopefully for others.

madisgram, yeah, all those things were in place. I try my best to be careful, do the meetings, etc..
It's not been a problem so far about stopping any of them. If anything I am glad to be off them.

Honestly? I think it was a well placed kick in the butt and out of complacency.

Cap