Thanks

I'm trying with the self affirmations and such, it's difficult, but I'm getting there. Reassurance from others is helping, too.

I didn't sleep a wink last night.. Someone that lives here tried to take advantage of the fact that I wasn't fully aware of what I was saying, that I was drowsy.. So started to come onto me.. Scary stuff. Luckily, in my dazed state, I managed to give him the cold shoulder. He came down to my room a while after and spoke to me about it.. I hardly remembered it. He apologised though, which helped.

So.. My meds worked on my brain, my speech (made it slurred), my limbs, everything BUT my body clock so I felt weak and tired and such, but my body clock just wouldn't switc off! Hmph. I'm NOT happy. I'm really, really ill today and I feel sick and tired and weak and grumpy.. Not a good combination when I have to get up early tomorrow, bake a cake for my Mum and see my Mum tomorrow, along with Connor staying over tonight and trying to help out a friend in a bit.

I've taken the day off college AGAIN today.. This is getting ridiculous.. I feel so petty and silly for not going to college just for feeling like this 2 days this week, but.. I can hardly walk anywhere without stumbling, my speech is still slightly slurred and muddled, yet everybody's been saying (especially this morning) how well spoken they've noticed I've been recently.. I don't know why that is :-/ Strange.. I feel horrible for it though, like everyone's laughing at me for it, taking the mickey out of me or something.. Sigh. I got told yesterday that i was singing too "poshly" because it was quite high notes and I'm used to singing in a well spoken manner for that, whhereas with the song I was doing, I'm not neccessarily supposed to.. Grrr. So I'm a bit stuck and confused..

I think if I went to college today, I'd just get on peoples' nerves, they'd get on mine and I'd probably just snap at everyone. So.. I guess it's best that I'm not at college today.. I'm in so much pain