i do think u would benefit by seeing a T. many of us have had false beliefs about ourselves and others. it creates a lack of trust, ktbug, in many cases. you don't have to stay in this uncomfortable "place". because of our trust issues it can roll over into our relationships and then it affects others and our own sense of peace and their's too. i do hope you will seek out therapy. can't tell u how much it helped me understand myself and my relationships with others. please keep us posted on what you decide to do. i'm glad you consdering this option. it will help you immensely gain insight and can make your world a happier place.