Today I am saying goodbye to my sweet kitty who has been my daily companion for the past 8 years. She is so old and frail now that I know that she has no quality of life anymore.

This morning my husband didn't even say goodbye to her before he left for work. He knows how important she is to me; he knows that she is basically my best friend. He will never see her again, and it doesn't even matter to him.

I was up all last night holding her and telling her what a great companion she has been and how much I love her. And it's like he doesn't even notice.

So, we are going to walk this path alone -- just my kitty and me.

THIS IS NOT HOW I WANTED MY LIFE TO BE.

I want to make it different. I promised my little kitty that in her honor I would take back my life. Last night I felt so much like I could do that. But today I feel like I am right back at the beginning.

leave tonight or live and die this way - Tracy Chapman