i am having this overwhelming fear today. i know who it is coming from and I don't know what to do to comfort her. it seems that no matter what I do the fear stays persistant. sometimes i think i can just will this disorder away. i want to deny it even exist. i just want to say that i made this whole thing up and that i am a horrible person for doing so. i just want to scream at the top of my lungs "IT IS NOT REAL!!!!!!! I AM MAKING UP EVERYTHING!!!"

i just want to be normal (or at least not have to deal with so much). will this get better soon?