Hi Tablarosa,
I would agree with everything Madisgram said and that you can't do it alone. I'm sorry for your son, you must be under extreme pressure right now. I personally don't drink for reasons that I saw my brother battle alcohol addiction all his life. Unfornately he lost his battle a year ago this April to alcohol poisoning. Please speak to the hospital where your son goes and see if they can guide you in the right direction. To me alcohol is a poison , plain and simple- I've seen the damage it can do to people and their families. You owe it to yourself and your son to get healthy, so you can live the life you were truly meant to live.