tablarosa, Hi!

You've taken big steps in admitting to your alcohol problem and posting here about it.
I applaud your courage and honesty...

Some good advice has been shared and I hope you found some of it useful.
My mind often goes off into left field so bear with me, ok?

Many people do have problems with the God aspect of AA. Out of this grew other groups that have had success in helping women stay sober.
I have to be honest, though. AA is the cornerstone of my sobriety. It was what I needed when I first quit; now it's what I want. Living the principals of AA have given me much peace and hope, and many, but not all, of my best buds are AA members.

At one point I used another way of staying sober as an adjunct to AA. It addressed my needs as a woman, and I found it helpful in shoring up my growing self esteem.
I do not advocate anyone doing the same thing.
I'm sharing what worked for me...
WFS, Women For Sobriety, was a good addition for me. It was not the base of my recovery, but it did help.
I'm repeating that it was an addition to AA because I do believe AA has one of the best recovery programs.
As with AA, I took what I needed and left the rest.
There are other groups you can find by using Google.

As you go along you may find that AA is a viable option for you...please don't rule it out completely.

My honest feeling is nothing else in your life is going to be halfway decent until you stop drinking. It's grand that you are aware of it and willing...willingness is absolutely necessary if you are to get sober and stay sober.

The feeling of being flattened by the booze and all the problems that come from it can be used as the first step in starting a new and better life--a sober one.
tablarosa, I've been down that hole so many times there is a corner with my name on it.

Helping hands are stretching out for your hands. You don't have to climb out of that hole by yourself.
We know how different life can be without the tremendous weight of addiction on our backs.

Please keep posting and let us know how you are...
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I Care

Peace and Power,
Cap