Im glad you see a T - do you have friends there who are going through the same things as you who you can talk ot about this? maybe there is a support group you can join even though you prob dont want to

actively trying to find things that are good can help - a flower growing in an abandoned garden - someone sweeping their porch - showing that life is moving on - for me having plants in my flat helps - seeing things grow gives me hope - sometimes!

The fact that you are there carrying on is amazing - give yourself some credit for that - do somthing nice for you - even if its as small as eating a chocolate or taking a shower with nice smelling shower gel - keep talking to your T - one day the numbness will give way to feelings again - when you are ready

take care