Okay Echoes--here goes. I read your post before dinner and now have digested both!

Somehow this feels like one of those true transitional moments in therapy where you have spiraled and now are ready to land on next level down. You have become keenly aware of the traits that have prevented you from a deeper intimacy thus far. This is a direct result of your hard work with T. And yet, you have been able to have some admittedly good or "great" sessions, so you are enticed by that experience. You justify the resistance by calling it sabotage of what you want. Then you can wrap it up in a nice package and put it away.

(((((((Echoes))))))

It's all part of the journey, eh?