Hi Lovely Louisa,

This is a GOOD start. major hugs to you ...

I have not been raped by a woman . I have had some indecent exposure stuff and inapporpriate touching that was unwanted . And I let it slde.

No wait .. I was almost raped . I keep forgetting I guess it was by a woman I never called it that . the one that happened to me when I was 16 . I hate this one . It was with a bisexual 18 year old woman who was my friend and her 49 year old boy friend who was an alchoholic. I had a little too much to drink and was trying not to pass out . They took me up stairs and the details I don't want to get into . After wards when I declined going to the mall the next day they would drive by my life guard chair and park in the parking lot. I can just imagine what they were doing . which it never occured to me until right this momment . Thats how abuse is , You don't think about stuff till long after . And funny how therapists just don't see or point this stuff out even though I have descibed these stories over and over .

I suppose there could be physical signs and a way to get DNA . But as in all rapes it has to be done within a 24 hour period . Maybe even less.
So its the time element you have here and its a double ouch because theres the loss of proof and the distance of time .

But you can talk it through with a sexual assalt hot line . They may direct you to some counceling and you can work it out there . I sent one woman a written letter telling her how her behavior effected me . Let her have the same where it belonged.

I hope this helps some what ,
I really didn't expect

I mean I haven't really called it a rape because It wasn't penetration from a man but there was from the woman .
it was just sick and gross.

and I was a Virgin .

great this is just great..


You may get some feedback in the abuse group here as well. As in all abuse it just hurts Lovely . one must move through it the anger as well .

Im sorry this happened to you .