I've actually taken myself down this road before. I kept going over in my mind why I wasn't getting better, why I wasn't rebounding from the depression. I worried that deep down I didn't WANT to get better. Like I was somehow keeping myself sick becuase I was getting something from it. I brought this up with my t and she basically said that it didn't make sense. Through the darkest days I managed to scrape myself off the bed and get to work only to come back and collapse back in the bed. Her feeling was that as long as I was putting one foot in front of the other then I wasn't keeping myself in a self-perpetuating model of depression. I guess the answer to this question for you would be to examine your thoughts and behaviors. I think if you feel like you're doing all the right things but you're not getting better then maybe you're not getting anything out of it. If you look within and find that maybe you're using the depression as an excuse for something then maybe it's something to discuss. But if that's the case then is it that you're "getting something out of being depressed" or is it a symptom of the illness?? I don't think there's a right answer.