I've always suffered from low self-esteem. I've done intensive therapy which has increased my awareness of my issues but sadly not the acceptance or action parts-well not to a great extent. This undoubtedly stems from being "an adult child of an alcoholic" but what am I meant to do about it now?? Progress is so slow. I'm so tired of battling the same issues over and over again. It feels like groundhod day in my life. I feel quite suicidal at times but wouldn't do that because I'm...scared that I won't succeed and will end up being paralysed or worse after a failed attempt. So basically I'm surviving. I have tried quick-fixes and they havent worked...well they gave me a temporary high but then I went back to my old "I'm not good enough" behaviour. I try to follow the al-anon 12 steps because it is the only thing that yields any kind of results for me but its so intensive. I wish there was another easier way yet I know there isnt. i find it difficult to stick to it and keep relapsing back into old behaviours. i know better yet continually opt for the easy way. when will things get easier???!

I'm wondering if theres anyone out there experiencing the same problems at the moment. it would be really great to hear from you.