I understand completely what you are feeling. I have just been put on "administrative leave". I am sure that I will be terminated because I do not agree with the billing practices of the physician that I am associated with. I am saddened and hurt and angry as all get out! I am also depressed and at one point considered just taking a hand full of pills so I would go to sleep and not wake up... It's sad that arrogant, bully's like the two people who claim to run this company are allowed to be mean, nasty and hateful to someone that is just trying to do a good job.