I had a large update that was dumped I believe. Tomorrow I go back to work. Hubby is getting around well and staples come out tomorrow afternoon. I will pour his meds out for him. He took a shower today and we went for a walk with the dogs. It is freezing here. He is resting now. I don't look foreward to the work thing. I question if some of what they are doing and saying to me is legal and or abusive. For example they told me that my evaluation was confidential and that I may not discuss with anyone? It's about me. That came from my being friends with a board member and sharing my pain with her over something that was said to me a month or so back. I also have written accusations against me that are not true and I am trying to stay in the present with it as it is reminisent of childhood abuse. I was tortured because I was bad, did bad etc. So I am mixed about the work thing, worried about money. Hubby has no income at all. I will try to just do my job and take care of my body and soul while I do it. Swim? Eat well, walk, drink water. My youngest spent the weekend retreating in the woods with friends and that was great for all of us. I am anxious about returning to work, leaving hubby, money. Where did my gratitude for his being okay go? Can't make me happy no matter how hard we try. The walk was fun because the dogs, all 5 of them were so funny. They hadn't been in a while so in the van on the way to the old road they were talking and baby started howling. They were so excited and had a blast. I love watching them. They have lots of space here to run but it is the routine of a new adventure4 they like. I gave up many animals trying to simplify things and I am thinking my goats are next. I also am going to discuss with the girls giving up sattelite t.v. Saves money and no one ever watches. Rambling, I know. Magic words of comfort please.