Hello
A doctors visit would help you to discover what is truly going on in your life. You will need an assessment to discover if its bi polar disorder and if so medication.
What has changed in your life for you to become an A hole.
Once you find out what the stresses are in your life you may find ways to lesson these stresses or rid them in your life. Are you depressed now or have you been depressed in the past?
I hope you found this helpful.
regards scoobywho