((((echoes)))))

Connecting is soooo freaking hard AND scarey, isnt it?

I have started thinking to myself that maybe I am unable of connecting with people as well. BUT I am also hoping therapy will change that for me. I grew up in a very emotionally closed off, disconnected family, where I spent most of my time either in my room alone or at school. When I was in the third grade I used to daydream and wish my third grade teacher would take me home with her because she was so caring and sweet and patient and attentive and I wanted her to adopt me---she was the first glimpse of a world that I wanted but couldnt have.

I have had good sessions with T and I am HOPING that those good sessions and hopefully future ones will give me what i need to begin to allow myself to connect with people.

You mentioned that you have had some good sessions too, can you look at those good sessions as the stepping stones to connectedness?
Have you talked to your T about this? Maybe your T can show you a different way of looking at this. You have a desire to connect, but your fears are keeping you back (same as me), but don't lose site of that desire and want. Let it be what drives you. You desire to feel and have connectedness.