So, I have this girlfriend who I have known for 5 years, but we are now just bf and gf since a week or so ago. Whenever I am around her I am so happy and I love being around her, but I feel like everything is moving too slow. We haven't actually had a real date or anything. We have hung out with our friends and things like that a few times, but not really a date, except yesterday, when me and her went to the Zoo. But I feel everything is too slow. For knowing her 5 years already, you would think it would be easier. But like, we haven't even held hands when walking. Since this is my first relationship, I am really nervous about everything, and don't want to screw this all up. Last night when eating with her (and with my parents) at this italian place, there was this one moment when me and her had both looked at each other and for a few seconds it was quiet, and we just looked into each others eyes, and it would have been the perfect time to kiss, but we were with my parents. even without them, I would have been sooooo nervous to kiss, even though I really want to and I think she does too. But she has not shown any thing of wanting to move faster either. She hasn't tried to hold my hand or anything either. I really like her and I don't want our relationship to end anytime soon.

Maybe next time I see her I will try to talk with her and say how I have never been in a relationship before, and that I am sorry if I don't do everything perfect, but I will try to, and I am nervous, but I really like her, and that she has made me really happy. that will probably help to say that.

But I just have this feeling as if she doesn't want to be in this relationship. Even though she says she is happy, I just have this feeling, and I think it is because it is going too slow.

I will probably see her tonight again at youth group at church, and maybe I could tell her then, and we are riding in the bus to go to this place and i will probably sit next to her, and maybe on the way coming back when it is dark, maybe lean against her and put my head on her shoulder. But, that is what gets me confused. Out of all the stuff I have seen before and of other people, it should be her to lean her head on my shoulder, and all that other similar stuff. I am confused. and think everything is going to slow. Because we have seen each other like 4 times the past week, and known each other 5 years, yet, its so slow.