Right now I AM the 3 A's.....Angry, anxious and agitated. It has been building since last night and getting worse. I go back to see the T tomorrow and know what will happen. This is my 2nd appointment and I am not sure what to think about it all. I was not even sure if to post or where to even post this. I keep thinking about all the questions she asked me at the first session and the honest answers I gave. I have been thinking all week I shouldn't have said this or that. I feel very vulnerable right now that she knows so much about me and I do not trust her yet.

My issue is I know I need help especially after my actions yesterday. Driving my nephew home with my parents in the car totally zoned out. On a winding road just kept driving straight towards trees....my mothers yelling got me back on track and on the road. The bad thing is if another car were to becoming the other way I could haveRight now I AM the 3 A's.....Angry, anxious and agitated. seriously injured them and my innocent 5 and a half yr old nephew.

I feel like I should tell her about this but then again I don't. This is just adding to my anxiety about going to see her tomorrow. I am angry that it happened and that is adding to my agitation.

I am anxious about tomorrow and feel like running the other way. When I get like this I have unexplainable high nervous energy and have no release. I am frustrated right now about this whole thing including going back to see the T tomorrow.