i fully understand that. there are things that they don't want me to know and it makes me feel like a 2 yr old!!! i feel angry and scared at the same time. i think giving up control is like not hanging onto the "i will do this myself and i know what to do and i want to be in charge"--i think anyway

white iris was like that. she had to let us express ourselves and talk and stuff like that. she had a real tight reign on us. she can be a bit controlling even still.

once she relaxed her hold and let us talk and be who we are without her wanting to do it without us, then she found that we started working more as a team and discussed things more instead of her trying to do it alone and pushing us somewhere else and denying we even existed. at least she tried. HAHA

don't know if this is helping. but i hope so
naomi of the constellation