I too was on a website that almost pull the trigger for me. And I too had a date set up. But as you see I'm still here. I don't know if there is a reason why I'm still here but I'm glad at least I find this site. Maybe with time we will find why we are here. I see that you have very good friends in here, friends that care for you. That's a very good thing in your life. Some don't even have that, don't even have a computer to reach out. Sometime I try to focus on those small things to help me keep going. I hope you can find the help you need.
Take good care!

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