How old are you and how long have you been living with AS symptoms before DX?
I do not officially have AS but my T and I have discussed it. There is autism in my family(very severe cases) so maybe.......
I wonder the scope or the severity of your AS and wonder if there are other factors at play.
The only thing I can say for any certainty is that if you crave companionship and intimicy, you kind of have to work at loving your TRUE self and not really giving a damn what other people think.........very hard but once small victories happen, it gets easier and easier.
It took me all my life up untill the last 4 years to realise this........I am not an affectionate person and don't like to be touched much but that does not mean that I do not need to be loved........I just wouldn't settle for someone who did not love me......for me. And I have found that.
Once you start to love yourself and never make excuses for who you are........others will follow....
Have faith........we are with you

