Hey, we human beings are all in the same boat. I'm finding the work I'm doing now with my therapist and using EMDR has made a big difference.
I'm also doing feldenkrais--a form of awareness through movement--and the two modalities are completely complementary. My therapist respects the work on the physical level that the bodyworker does and vice versa.
I wish you all the best with your healing. It really makes a difference to me to read and write to other people who are going through this.
Even though I have a loving partner, friends and a spiritual community--it still takes the courage of a lion to face these ghosts of the past.
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Originally Posted by tablarosa
Thank you. I really didn't even consider the FREEZE aspect of PSTD. That is honestly where I have been for the past month. I can't even decide what color of socks to wear. I never even considered it (that aspect) being an expression of my PTSD.
And I thank you for delineating rage versus anger. I think I am at rage, not anger. I am going off on the most insignificant aspects of life -- a disrespectful cashier at a store, an unkind remark made by my son.
Rage as a violation is a helpful concept to consider. I have never been truly treated for my PTSD (just my major depression...the two times attempts was made to treat me for PTSD I disassociated and treatment had to be stopped).
I am finally after some dismal 52 years on this planet coming to realize that I need to get this PTSD issue under control before I can address any of the other unsavory aspects of my life (alcohol and eating disorders, relationship problems and crushing depression).
Moving forward....thank you for the hand up.
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