My flatmates have guests over for dinner.
This has happened before.
I don't eat dinner then. I have had no dinner tonight.
When I got in from work she was taking up the kitchen and I felt I couldn't go in and ask to use the cooker for 10 minutes.
Now of course I can't go in as they are all in there.

I'll maybe get up in the night and have some chocolate or something.

Like before.

I COULD have done different, but I am too bound by my fears and anger to do so, even to go out and buy some chips and eat them in the park.
Too resentful and proud.

But if I'm trying to 'punish them' they know zilch about it and so it can't do anything...

I am empty and hungry and I am punishing myself. But I'm not sure quite why.

Can you help me figure this out?

Could it be because I am jealous, have no social life, etc, blaming myself for my self pity???

All my childhood family rows pretty much centred around dinner times.

And, like here, it is a kitchen dining room, so no 'escape' as it were.
Well. I'm totally escaped, in my room.

I have always had eating issues, not QUITE anorexic, but I am just under 7stone (43 kilos) and very scared of puting on any weight, I am 5 foot, (153cm)

sorrel