I think some of my depression comes from me not being able to get out there and just take off walking because of my tendonitis in my knees. I can barely walk through Walmart without my knees hurting so I have to use one of those riding carts and feel ashamed. I get those stares like why should a young thing like you have to use one of those carts. I walk sometimes but pay for it when I do.

I know that fuels my depression when I have to use my crutches when I fall and injure myself bad enough to have to use them. I hate using them and find that my symptoms of my mental illnesses become more pronounced when I am using my crutches.

So I don't know if it is my depression fueling my pain or my pain fueling my depression.

Jan