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i can't remember when i last had regular sleep patterns. when my last child left home about 33 months ago it got worse as i was not needed by children or able to work a regular job. i really got bad when i got my laptop 2 years ago (approx). i went through a long infatuation with it and stayed up too late on it many times. i am dissociative and live with a spouse who denies the existence of d.i.d. and apparently considers me a malingerer who just doesn't want to get well. no medication works regularly for me and i feel safer sleeping in the day. all in all this just ticks off my spouse who wishes i would be a good stepford wife and get over myself and my problems. not doing too well with that. never will. i am in therapy and have been a long time. i really do wish to get well and join the middle american life i am supposed to be living. i'm getting sort of desperate. back to the wall desperate. really scared.
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