I would do things that made me happy but i never get time to myself. It may sound silly but what makes me feel really good is listening to really loud music and dancing around like crazy it just makes me feel well really free i guess! But i dont ever get to be alone in my house. I wont do this in front of anyone because its embarrassing and even when my bf isnt home i still cant do it because the music would scare my son and plus he never lets me have 5 mins peace anyway! Im just really sick of this roller coaster ride of emotions...i want off this ride but it seems like its never ending....thanx for all of the support peeps its much appreciated *hugs to all*