Hi,

I have contamination OCD (Germs and AIDS) - but I've been thinking of something about a week now, it's about stabbing people with a knife.
It's just about people I don't know - because there's a kind of conspiracy against me, but a few days ago - it was a bit different.

It just kind of come into my head, but with someone different - so I kept like replaying it, but then I wondered why I wasn't bothered about it. It was about the psychiatric nurse - I've just started seeing.

So I though about my family and friends and it was like No - I'd never do that, so I thought about my psychologist and it was No - Never, for her as well - so that was good.

Now though I'm kind of confused about the ones I don't mind - I know I couldn't do it (well I don't think so) - my OCD would stop that happening, even if I wanted, I have a germ phobia.

But I just wondered why some didn't bother me, but with someone else it really does.
I keep thinking about it, but it's not like in the way I think about the germs or AIDS - I don't know if this is something I want to do or not.

Is it OCD or just like some kind of fantasy thing?