hi sannah. your right on the dot i think. my t consistently tells me i got this brick wall up and i wont let it down. she keeps trying to get me talk about things but i only skim the surface of what i expericenced. im not good with expressing myself, never have been. so going below that surface is another territory i havent' gone yet. i guess with my t i'll get there. but it seems like getting there means you have to ball your assss off. and i can't even shed a tear. numb.